I think I’ve stumbled back to this blank post a couple of times throughout 2024. I’ve started it, edited it, deleted it, created a new one, trashed it, revised it, and so on and so forth for the past six months. I never really got my thoughts and emotions out on paper, and haven’t had the the chance to really sit around and think before writing this post. I finally got some time this week, after being stuck inside for about 5 days.
2024 has been probably the most difficult couple of months in recent memory. Nothing has gone to plan. Physically, mentally, and emotionally I had some of the least unproductive days this year. I’ve put alot of things and people ahead of myself and had the mentality, “I built up a reserve I can take a break”.
I lost my discipline. I lost my routines. I lost the fire and passion for success. I stopped taking action. I was wiped. I think I’ve felt more lost this year than past years. Being unable to really maintain my physical performance just gets you in a different state of mind.
Ultimately though, I think I just lost “the fire”, that thing that gets me going to do whatever. I got tired and to compromise on so many standards that I set for myself. I don’t know what I am going to be able to do, to get myself back the start of 2024 when I was full of energy and goals except just try to up the discipline used to create the stepping stones to the next goal. It just gets harder as more and more things get in the way, and your mind gets cloudy, but that’s just me complaining at this point.
Routines
Routines were completely turned upside down or non-existent. Something that frankly I do really well with, and if I don’t have one I tend to really fall apart.
Commitments
Much like recent years I’ve tried to pack my calendar. I knew that the only way to really advance and get far in life would be to pack my calendar with enough activities, events, jobs, and meetups to keep my career and momentum always moving forward. This year I over committed. I went a bit overboard and really stretched myself to my limits.
Personal Health
Every year, every couple of months, every few weeks, I always have this “put my foot down” mentally about finally taking care of myself. Now I am not saying that I haven’t ever taken care of myself, but I guess it runs in the family and I’ve always put others ahead of my own responsibilities. Whether it’s for a shift at the gym, a running tour after a bad running session, or whatever else. This year I haven’t prioritized myself at all.
This also relates to the same injury from earlier in the year that I have not been able to figure out how to shake it.
Unplanned Activities
Most of my calendar heading into the end of 2023 was full of events, goals, visions, and trips all planned for 2024. Not to
New Environments
I don’t really know what to expect or how to dig out for the next couple of months to finish off 2024 on the right foot, but it’s a new challenge and chance to rebuild again from scratch. I go through these periods of highs and lows where
There’s been probably many more, but at this point there’s no use to writing everything down. It’s just about taking that next step, and sticking to the plan. I don’t know what that is going to entail or what it’s going to look like, but I’ll be trying my best and maybe this post will be less somber the next time I write an entry.
Goals Achieved
For as much has gone wrong this year I never seem to look at what was accomplished. I hit one of my longest standing goals this year, and got to officially knock it off the list.
New Skills Learned
With every new environment and change during the year, I guess that means that I only added to my skillset. I got the chance to perfect and hone in on teaching aspects and other skills that I didn’t know I was capable of doing especially during all this movement going on in life.
New Friends Made
I never speak to much about the friends I’ve made and people on other levels that I held accountable all these years. You need not only your peers, but those who are a level higher than you to give you that feedback and guidance where you need it most.
Christopher Sandoli 
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